The 65th Hunger Games

One more year of this things. I am so tired of this but Blight threw a tantrum for not being mentor this year because last year his tributes died at the bloodbath.

So here I am at the train with my tributes who didn't look much happy to have me as their mentor. When all of a sudden out scourt calls me to her room.

-What is it this time? I swear it wasn't me who put peanut oil on your food. I don't play with allergies.- I say.

- That's not it... I thought you should see the district 10's tribute.- she tells me pointing at the screen.

But I didn't need to look to know... She wouldn't call me unless... My baby girl got picked...

I can't mentor my tributes this year. I tell the scourt to give them advice. She heard me doing that before she just had to repeat it.

As soon as we arrive at the Capitol I rush myself to the Tenth floor. I haven't seen my daughter in 7 years... I thought Atticus would keep her safe. I know he couldn't save her from this but I feel like punching him in the face.

I hug my daughter and she looks really confused with my action but I don't care.

- It'll be fine. You'll be fine. - when did she grow taller than me? So she takes after Atticus. - How could you let this happen?! She was at /your/ care! - I know he couldn't have done anything to prevent it...

- Stop it, mom! You know it's not dad's fault! - she yells at me. - if anything, the Capitol is giving us their version of happy family reunion!

-He is - she tells me. - he is doing something unlike you! - she accuses.

-Don't think for a moment that I won't do whatever it takes to bring you home! - but I start thinking how could I help a tribute from another district?

The time passed and as soon as everyone found out who Kassie was she became a target. Don't know why, the guy from One tried to help her out... But they were both killed on the second day...

I was watching it at the Tenth floor. Atticus wasn't here. I knew what he was doing to get her sponsors. Did he already know?

- It's our fault. - I conclude for no one to hear. - we were against the rules for surviving without killing
..it's our fault... They are punishing us..

- Atticus.. - I can't stop myself from crying. I am fighting myself to keep me sane. But not after what I just watched.. - She's gone, Atticus... Our little girl is gone. - I fall in his arms I didn't care about anything anymore.

I keep crying in his arms. I hear his voice shake as he apologizes. I hold him really tight. I wonder if our boys at seven watched what happened to their sister...

- It was the career alliance. - I force myself to say. - the boy from one tried to protect her... They both died... - I can't look at him right. I don't think I can look at anyone...

- you tried. Like she said.. You tried more than I did.. - I say finally looking him in the eyes. - he shouldn't hold himself from crying... - you are not a failure... She loved you so much... - I hug him even more. - you were not a failure.

- I am so tired of this freaking games. - I say between tears. - I'm so full of loving those who I love. - I nearly can't speak from the anger I'm feeling. - I don't want to lose anyone else.

- please. Don't leave me, you too. - I ask him. - the boys need you. They barely remember your face. - I tell him. - I don't want them to be with you like Kassie was with me... Until it was too late to reverse it... Please stay by my side again... Please.. - I beg him still fighting the tears.

- What are you saying? - I ask offended. - we have a family together. I am not saying this only because I'm in pain. Your sons miss you. I missed you. I never /ever / regret a step in my life where you were involved. You gave me a reason to live for... And a reason to fight...

- I also thought I'd hate you... But I can't... You aren't responsible for what happened. I saw what you did to get her the sponsors that got her through the first night... - I say placing a hand on his face, caressing him. - I left you alone to raise her and you did a very good job... - I say with pride. - but we have to do something for our sons... We can't wait for the Capitol to take them too...

- I love you too, Atticus.. I I have two beautiful redheads at home to remind of you and when things were simpler... - I take a deep breath and hug him tight so I can whisper in his year. - Haymitch and some of the guys are up to something... He told me the 13 is still working. Maybe we can get there..

- I don't think Hay would joke about this. - I tell him. - We can get there through the Northern woods. It will take some days... But we can do it. - I kiss him finally. - We can do it.

- We'd have to find a way to get to 12 first... From Seven it's still a long way to go. - Was she bring serious about this? That seems crazy. - I don't know, Gabrielle... If tet catch us, we loose eeverything and who knows more. - I murmur, kissing her back. How much did I miss this....